Me Against .... ???

I know I've been given more than I've ever dream of asking for, I do know how to feel of content and grateful. But when you don't have to fight for or struggle for something, You don't really know how its feels to lose it or not get it, Its like hanging on to something without knowing the reason why. It starts getting despairing and disillusion sets in, Now I don't really know if I really wanted all these? Or have I been deluding myself into thinking these are what I want, Just for my naive and juvenile thoughts of wanting to fight back? And just whom and what in the world am I fighting against and for...........?